I write this in site talk because I want to thank Desktop Nexus AND its members!

Those who know me over PM. Know I've been living a "dark age" for a very long time. But during the last past hours, I broke that mental dark age of mine which lasted for about at least 10 years! I have still a lot of mental debugging to do and I don't know how stable and lasting it is. But this is the greates result I had in about of 10 years of isolation and suffering!

I'm very happy that scientific Aura Research does support me as well. But I also would like to know: Did it ever happened to you that you lived in hell and others helped you to get out of it?

You have to understand the magnitude of my own problem. My own parents kicked me into this hole of small thinking and feeling. But I was never meant to be small so I got confused and silence until then I couldn't take it anymore and rampaged. My parents didn't do it intensionally since they are not the brightest, but the solid mental health of the DN community help me out of this hole again! It was common sense that was missing in my own mind.

I'm sorry for the initial trouble I caused when I first came here. But it was a necessary evil to catch my mental exceptions by engaging them. From now on I strongly hope that finally I can do that what I'm meant to be. And I do strongly support that what helped me here as well. They where the teaching of Dr. Joseph Murphy through his book: "The Power Of Your Subconscious Mind". As well scientific endeavors of Aura Research, which I will go next to with my own private effort.

EDIT: Dark Age to "Dark Age".

Talking about Aura Research, I'm working on a concept for it. And it will take some time and effort. So I actually don't recommend any more to visit my initial website about the Demigod Theory. Its form is far too "blown" and does require lots of rewriting.

I'm planning now to make a much stronger hook to existing Aura Research and common sense. But I have to warn you again. Aura Research, simply has still the huge potential to blow up our current view at life!

... and science will support its new truth! Don't expect too much just yet though. There is a lot of work that needs to be done here. But one day, I'm quite sure already, science will explain that what was hidden before our objective eye for so long...

I'm glad to see your sense of humor is returning as well! Haha


No, on a serious note, I'm really happy for you. Recognizing and overcoming emotional distress is a very difficult thing to do, and I truly wish you the best through your (bright) future.

Thanks, Komodo!

I'm watching myself. Fortunately I made now a promise here in someway. This will bind me. This is very good because I suspect a fall back to come. But the people here won't notice anything. I just have to count on my diary and the recorded data of ManicTime which records my activities I do on my computer.

If I drop again, all that recorded data should remind me again of my old goals. And yes, when I dropped in the past it was most severe to my way of life. That's why I'm so obsessed with writing so much now. Because it seems to program me and keep me on track.

If this is so, you're really going to like one of the new (unannounced) features we're releasing on Desktop Nexus in the next week or two.

I wonder what these new features will be...hopefully options to costumize your DN page better.